Tuesday, October 15, 2002

i don't know why i can be so weak
it seems like it's not how i used to be
lately... i feel so empty inside... i lost my objectives...
i lost my hope...

it's about a girl
i believe she never wants me to be like this
she told me about love, wonderful love...
but then she left me...
and it was my fault not trying to say.. "please, don't go..."
she said that she always love me... and i really really do...
but in reality... now she belongs to someone else.
it hurts me so much

for so many times i've tried to love.... but i can't...
in my heart... it's always her....
she is the one in my mind everytime i wake up in the morning
it's her name i speak everytime i feel alone
it's her name i speak everytime i feel pain
thinking the time i've spent with her makes me smile
seeing the fact makes me cry

i still don't believe that love can make me feel like this..
i'm so weak... weak... weak...
i hate this...

i know i have to stop this... soon....
first... i have to burry all the memory... though those are beautiful ones...
then i have to open my heart....
then i have to take back all my heart that she took away.

i know it's hard... but i have to try...
life is a short trip

wish me luck

i don't know how many times i've said something like this...
but got nothing...
i hope this will work...


posted by Tjatoer - 14:43 -

::: IvanTJ :::